One girl's journey into the world of Figure competition

My Pants Feel Like Sausage Casings – And other things I’ve learned while prepping

Who would of thought that part of getting ripped first meant getting a little plump?

When I first signed up for this bodybuilding journey I was expecting to dial up the exercise, dial down the food intake and then see my amazing muscles grow and bulge all the way to the stage.

I, of course, did not understand the science of muscle building at that time.

Cutting and muscle growth are not something you can do in tandem.  You can cut and spare muscle, but you cannot cut and gain muscle.

That was news to me.

Muscles need plenty of energy from food to fuel their growth which happens with caloric excess and cannot happen with a caloric deficit.  You shouldn’t be packing in a thousand more calories a day, but 200-300 over your daily expenditure should do the trick.  And those calories should be good ones, mainly from complex carbohydrates which will increase your glycogen levels to create a favorable environment for muscle growth.

The more I travel down this road to competition, the more I realize how many unfounded beliefs and strange ideas I carry with me about my body and muscle building in general.

I am now travelling down the road to enlightenment

Like many women, I have been hung up on being slender – if not skinny – my whole life.  I have worked endlessly with no real finish line in sight to change my body to look like something I don’t even know if it could.

When I started working with my coach I was 5’10”, 145lbs.  His goal for me was 155.  I couldn’t believe that I was signing up to getting heavier, but I did sign up.

This is me before.

Having suffered through eating disorders in the past, my mind was going a mile a minute trying to be at peace with what I was doing. I could see glimmers of my 6-pack disappearing due to water retention.  My thighs started to touch.

I was sincerely uncomfortable with what I was doing, and my brain was unable to find the rationale behind gaining weight.  I was allowing my body to morph right before my eyes away from what I wanted it to be.

What was I doing?

I did a lot of self-coaching over the next few weeks.  I told myself that although this was uncomfortable, I had never tried to gain muscle by eating more ever before.  I read more online.  I talked more with my trainer.  I found rationale behind his advice.

I needed to gain muscle, so I needed to fuel myself more.  I had to give this method a try, so I pushed on.

I reassured myself that my body is malleable, that my body will be okay and that I can return my body to whatever state I so desire – if I choose – after this is competition is over.

I couldn’t deny my brain that I was seeing my muscles grow, even if they were covered by an extra puffy little layer of body fat.  I now knew that I couldn’t cut back my calories and expect the results I desired.

So I decided to charge on.

It was a Tuesday night.  I was in the gym.  I was doing squats and looking at myself in the mirror as I worked through my last set.  I was staring hard at my legs as I raised up from a deep squat, clenching my butt cheeks.  Are my legs fatter?  Do I look fatter?

And suddenly a switch flipped.  I finished out the set and put the bar on the ground.

No.  I’m stronger and want to be strong and I will continue moving forward and I will not look back.

And I was suddenly over the skinny thing.

I wasn’t going to beat myself up over the fact that my pants were a little tighter.  I wasn’t out of control.  I wasn’t doing anything ridiculous.  I was adding some calories and adding some muscle and this was purposeful.

I want to achieve my goal and so I will do what needs to be done to get there, even if it is slightly uncomfortable for a while.  Even if my pants do feel like sausage casings.

I decided that I was going to let my body do this and then finally my brain decided it was going to do this, too.

And so I am continuing to allow myself to get stronger in every sense.

What have you learned on your journey?


5 responses

  1. Hello! As a former figure competitor, I am truly impressed with your dedication and motivation. It sounds to me like you have a great trainer who knows his/her stuff. The last thing you would want to do is lose muscle and look stringy on stage. I look forward to seeing how this goest for you! It is an amazing experience!! And with your attitude, you will go far!

    March 3, 2012 at 6:53 pm

  2. Christina B.

    Thank you so much for your words of support and encouragement!

    I definitely have confidence in my trainer and having someone there to back up their advice with science has given me “permission” to do things differently than I ever would have done on my own.

    I can’t wait to see where this all takes me! Best of luck to you with everything!


    March 4, 2012 at 1:34 pm

  3. I just found your blog, so I will definatley be following along. I kept nodding as I was reading your post, because I can relate! It’s amazing how long the mind takes to catch up to what you have commited too. I had the same epiphany after a session with my trainer this week. (Although, I am trying to lose weight and not gain, it’s still a mental battle).

    Good Luck on your journey! It sounds like you are off to a great start. 🙂

    March 8, 2012 at 3:56 pm

    • Christina B.

      Hi Julie! Great to hear from you and I’m really happy to hear that you had a mental breakthrough recently!

      Weight loss or weight gain is not just a physical change that happens with your body – there is truly a mental change that happens as well.

      Coming to terms with the fact that progress comes slowly and sometimes feels differently than we would expect is a great thing because then we’re prepared for anything.

      I am excited for you to continue in your journey on weight loss – and keep in touch – you can do it!


      March 8, 2012 at 4:08 pm

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